My Name is Rick Connolly
I’m about to celebrate my 30th birthday, a milestone I was told I was not going to reach.
In May of 2014 they discovered I had a large sarcoma in the left side of my neck/upper back that had caused severe erosion to several vertebra and appeared to be threatening my spinal cord.
As you can imagine this discovery came as a horrible shock, not only to myself but everyone around me, and the thoughts and feelings that followed were of a nature I never thought I would ever have to try to comprehend let alone live through and deal with, as I’m sure many of you have possibly experienced.
Looking back to the start of this journey, I couldn’t see into tomorrow let alone into the future, but I soon realized I had an inherent will to live, deep within me that I never really knew was there.
I soon learnt that I was inoperable and had metastases in my lungs.
There was nothing any conventional doctors or medicine could do for me, apart from offer me some form of synthetic poison that held a long list of direct effects, none of which were very good. I was told that these chemicals could possibly give me more time but obviously no better quality of life, (that of which I have now eclipsed).
So it was, I had to go it alone, with initially only a handful of knowledge about the mountain that stood before me and not really any idea of how I would attempt to scale it.
As time went on and I searched, read, listened, read some more and spoke to people to gather anything I could find that may be of some help to my situation. I slowly learnt and uncovered a world of truths, especially about myself, not to mention the world around us that has opened my eyes to a reality I realized I was totally unaware of.
I have been made aware of the nature of our society and the general lack of education regarding ourselves as strong, capable individuals who can provide everything we need for ourselves, (via proper diet and lifestyle factors as well as emotional and spiritual relief/cleansing and growth) to live happy, healthy, conscious and disease free lives, (for the most part).
I feel we live in a society that is cloaked in betrayal and deceit, and we as a society are allowing decisions to be made on our behalf, from behind a desk, that are having a direct impact on our state of well-being and quality of life. I feel we are being dumbed down by a world of corporations and control that is teaching us we don’t need to think, let alone know what to think when it comes to our own health and wellbeing, but to basically just consume and watch TV.
The solution? EDUCATION!
In a perfect world our children would be enlightened from day one, regarding the beauty, complexity and endless possibility of their minds and bodies and the magnificence of the world around them.
What better place than here, what better time than now?
All roads have led me to this place in time and I believe its all for good reason. From what most would call a death sentence, I have found myself in the greatest and most liberating position I could have ever imagined, and I am now beginning to discover my true purpose in this life.
All because of knowledge. What could be a better source of wisdom and knowledge than gritty first hand experience with an open mind?
Untold good has already come from my diagnosis, besides my own personal journey of growth and self-discovery, (that will continue until the day I leave this body) but also the impact it has had on so many other people, known and unknown, directly and indirectly, I have not yet been able to fathom.
I have realized that from just talking to people that known me, or I have met recently, some have taken it upon themselves and changed their habits for the better and have been made aware of things that directly affect them, that they maybe wouldn’t have otherwise. The causality? KNOWLEDGE.
This has therefore become one of the greatest inspiring factors for me moving forward, and the reason for your eyes panning left to right across the screen.
Please make no mistake, this is not yet the fairytale story with a tear jerking ending only a few paragraphs away, this is a marathon; not a sprint. I am in the process of creating the ‘fairytale’ by being fully aware of my place in this world.
I am now the architect of my life as apposed to the inadvertent creator I spent my first 28 years as. This is a lifestyle and direction changing ‘gift’ that has been bestowed on me, and has essentially given me a real chance at discovering my full, unrealized potential and the possibility to do something truly meaningful with the rest of my time in this body.
I am not as yet free of the disease that was not so long ago thriving in my body, but I am very much so in a place where I can understand the possibilities, not only of our minds and willpower, but of the world around us that has helped me to understand what is actually possible in this life. Thanks to many very special and knowledgeable people I have had the privilege of meeting and working with along the way so far.
I want to offer a first hand account of the ebbs and flows of my life, the trials and the highs I have experienced during my experience so far, so as to give insight, examples and things to question and look into further, but ultimately hope and inspiration. Also to help shed some light onto things that I have encountered, found difficult and testing but also those that have been liberating and help to keep me pushing forward.
I feel like I have white paint for a black future.
I understand that I am not yet a lifeguard; I am still very much so learning to swim, and I intend to keep doing so as I now know that knowledge and education are absolutely essential, especially in a situation like this.
I believe true healing comes from deep within, and at the very heart of it is the need to know and understand ourselves fully, to a point that we can tune in and ask ourselves the big questions, with a clear mind in order to find the big answers we seek and ultimately live the life that is truly ours, free of judgment and fear.
The uncertainty of this life is something we all have in common and always will, no matter what our situation. I for one feel blessed that I can now spend the rest of mine with my eyes wide open.